HOLIDAY!

Yea yea.. managed to get off on thurs which means i get 5 off days. SO HAPPY!! tho i know it will end real soon, but ill jus take this time off to rest. =)

Nothing really much happening.. been eating alot since its my mums birthday celebration on sat! all the satay, pork chop, fried rice and chicken is killing me~! my waist is expanding by the miles! BUT IM HAPPY! =)))

Then yday had seafood “不肥” buffet ... *不肥才怪~!* haha then the food not really nice.. all the waste are stuck in my body n i feel soooo bloated!

oh wells, moving on.. my cousin has a thing for mahjong nowadays.. dunno why but i guess too much of it kills?? no?? hes not betting big but i believe as this goes on, someday he will jus bet real big and probably lose big.. DUDE.. play easy yea~

Cheers to all around.. happy hari raya puasa and deepavali!

Pay Day!

Its another 2 days to my pay day.. cant wait for it.. but i know when it comes, it ll be gone in like another week haha.. so yea~ oh well, at least it would be a good one week.. hehe

Im glad im focus now... gotta do my duties in like keeping fit, practising my singing n composing... so busy man!! =) but its good..i dun wanna lose out to anyone n lest to disappoint myself.. =) yup!!! so add oil.. my album is scheduled to be out in nov! watch out~

Whats happening!

Whats happening you ask? hehe What a great topic to start... lets see.....................

Alot of happenings..M5 concepts has accepted me as their artiste and personally, ive also accepted them as my company... so things are moving better now.. alot more peace n stability..
tho. BE A STAR competition produced many great singers too.. im jus glad that im given the chance to have an album..

In nov, ill be having a duet compilation EP and sometime earli nex yr, ill be having an EP on my own.. =) hope it all goes well... and as to my other life, IMF took up alot of me.. really drained and down coz the working hours were torturing... but now that its over, im hAPPY! and i get my much needed rest.. =)

stay tune for more.. =)

so many things... *flustered* yet it doesnt excite me.. *sigh*

many things have happened...

Im moving to a new condo.. *after onli 2 years.. which i must say is really fast.. i feel so unexcited*

A company is interested in having me as their artiste.. * yet nothing much have really happened.. i so wish to keep practising n practising...i wanna play my music...*

IMF is coming and alot of my time would ba wasted.. *I am kinda lookin forward to it actually.. kinda acts like a camp for me..*

Im going hack to gymin again.. * I cant really lose the fats on me.. so i might as well jus tone it.. haha

well, above is jus the events thats happening to me now.. but in honest truth.. i feel kinda empty.. i wanna be happy bout my future.. but yet nothing seems assured.
when i was in LWSSOM n PG, tho. i wasnt assured a contract or an album, i feel useful there n that i enjoyed my time.. i enjoy the company, i enjoy the work, i enjoy the environment...
but now its stopped, i feel a sense of lost... sigh~

My dog seems to be a trouble to my family too n i am so frustrated coz i do wanna take care of him myself....but my NS and my work doesnt allow me to.. at least not everyday...

life is at a stand still... what can i do...
God pls guide me..

What goes up, must come down..

Why is it that life is such a screwed up rollercoaster ride??
After a bad patch and when things begin to look brighter, why must a sudden storm come and shadow my vision...

Another big "Shit" is headed towards me and i dunno if this might even be bigger than the last... this might jus be the biggest challenge yet...

And many thanks to those out there who poured care n concern on me regarding my probs..thanks alot! =)

killed 3 times

I jus downed four cans of Heineken.. neva drank so much in my entire life..
but life sucks at the moment...so i dun really care..
she said 3 sentences that would have made me kill myself 3 times..

i dun wanna sleep...

i wanna sing ktv.. i wanna sing till my heart comes out and my guts bleed..
i wanna sing till the glasses break and mic falls apart..
i wanna sing...
i wanna sing...

i feel so bottled up inside...
n yet i dun feel like talkin to anyone...
not even myself...

Empty Heart

My heart is empty..
devoid of all emotions.. n yet filled with negative ones..
I feel like a barrel slowly losing water... im losing my senses n my touch..
Im losing whats dear to me in my heart...
worst of all, i might even lose myself..

i hate my life at this moment...

many might find it reasonable...
creating history with a badminton victory in my unit..
working well in my duties...
doing fine in the performing group...
given ample opportunities to lead a happy and stable life...

i hate myself for not doing what i preach..
i hate myself for not standing against the waves..
i hate myself for being oblivious and in my own world..
n mostly i hate myself for being myself...

i hate me...

空洞心

空洞心

我心中的痛有谁了解
我心中的哀有谁明白
难道爱要这么放
才能让彼此更快乐无伤

没有你在，我无法谅解
没有你陪，我更加狼狈
所剩的感觉就这样
消失不见

副歌：

没有了爱情的空洞心
失去了自我的自信性
没有办法在撑下去
只好崔头让时间过去